I don't know about you, but I love me some Billy Joel. And I have always loved this particular ditty. It's hopeful. It's upbeat. It's thoughtful. It reminds us that what matters is on the inside.
So in my last blogpost, I talked about Willpower. I actually drafted that post back in February, and then sat on it for a while. For no good reason. At least, not one that I could see. Well, I had a pretty epic epiphany a week or two ago. As it turns out, it was about Willpower and why mine always failed me. I read Gabrielle Bernstein's Spirit Junkie earlier this year, which was all about surrendering to Spirit and not allowing your will, or your ego, to keep running the show. It just took me a little while to synthesize everything I'd read and everything I'd heard and thought, and most especially for my WILL/EGO to get out of the way so that I could put the pieces together. And it walloped me over the head, as if all of this information was brand new and I'd never heard any of it before. So here's how all this came together for me.
My Will, my ego, is bossy. And over the years she has bought into every the limiting belief that I have ever had of myself. So my Willpower was never effective because my Ego was trying to make all those stories, those limiting beliefs, my truth. She NEVER had the compassion or the empathy to ask my SOUL what she really wanted. If my Soul ever tried to raise her voice, Ego would just shut her down and say, "It ain't happening. Don't bother." Willpower was actually Can'tpower. A/K/A ihavenopower. When I started spending a little more time in meditation, I could start to hear the faint whisper of my Soul, saying, "I don't want that sugary/gluteny junk food. I want to be vibrant. I want to thrive. I want to believe all things are possible." And the MINDSET MAGIC moment that I had came when I decided to SURRENDER TO MY SOUL. When I honored my SOUL enough to say, "I hear you. You are worthy. I am worthy because of you," I was able to turn the corner on my dumb sugar cravings. I thought those cravings were something to be conquered, but "conquering" is not a concept that has ever sat well with me. I don't like power struggles, I don't respond well to being bossed around. I'm much more of a "let's do this together" kind of girl. So this idea of surrendering to my deepest desire, of working WITH my Soul to change my life, so work through my sugar cravings, THIS works for me. I had to go back to a spiritual place, where my heart could be loved unconditionally. I haven't kicked my Ego to the curb, though. She's part of me and will keep showing up whenever I get afraid or allow doubt to poke its head through the door. But she's not calling the shots. Just like the whisper that FINALLY caught my attention, I allow myself to soften to the desires of my Heart and Soul. Which links me directly to my Creator and my Community. How does this resonate with you? I'd love to hear your thoughts in the comments below.